Feeling a little better today. Got a slower start to the day, but so far I am in better spirits. I am listening to Mozart, doing a little light cleaning and getting ready to get out of the house.
Plan of things to do over the next few days:
Clean & organize bedroom
Clean & organize bathroom
Create plan on how to tackle the back room
Come up with some ideas on hanging Moi's Pink Girl with Glasses
Get busy so I can stop dwelling on all things job related
I think that's a good start. Let's see how far I get...
Friday, January 23, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
seven...
As in 'Number of days I have been job-free'.
I'm feeling myself teetering on the verge of depression. It makes me even sadder, because I am generally a very optimistic person. It's hard to put yourself out there, knowing what you offer, and get nothing back. Is this what blind-dating is like?
I've hiked two little mountains, seen my trainer and I am feeling stronger. I figure, as long as I am on a mini-permanent vacation that I might as well shrink my fat ass a little. I'm starting to wonder if the dogs can keep up...
The great mystery of the ever-shrinking bottom!
I'm feeling myself teetering on the verge of depression. It makes me even sadder, because I am generally a very optimistic person. It's hard to put yourself out there, knowing what you offer, and get nothing back. Is this what blind-dating is like?
I've hiked two little mountains, seen my trainer and I am feeling stronger. I figure, as long as I am on a mini-permanent vacation that I might as well shrink my fat ass a little. I'm starting to wonder if the dogs can keep up...
The great mystery of the ever-shrinking bottom!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
times, as they are a-changing
And then I was free...
well, not free as much as 'without'. as in a job.
I became one of the many, many unemployed on this past Thursday. It was shocking and overwhelming and took me a good day and a half to finally stop breaking into a short bout of hysteria.
Now, a few days have passed and I am assessing my options. There seem to be more than a few, and all I really need is something that let's me pay my bills and get groceries, gas, and maybe an extra buck or two for fun.
Yesterday I met up with an old friend, Amanda, and went hiking at South Mountain. It's been so long for both of us that we literally got lost on the way. It's a nice feeling to have what feels like a long conversation and a little walk, but what is really a few hours and a few miles.
Now I am trying to make the most of things, stay positive and enjoy temporarily having no responsibilities for at least a few days.
well, not free as much as 'without'. as in a job.
I became one of the many, many unemployed on this past Thursday. It was shocking and overwhelming and took me a good day and a half to finally stop breaking into a short bout of hysteria.
Now, a few days have passed and I am assessing my options. There seem to be more than a few, and all I really need is something that let's me pay my bills and get groceries, gas, and maybe an extra buck or two for fun.
Yesterday I met up with an old friend, Amanda, and went hiking at South Mountain. It's been so long for both of us that we literally got lost on the way. It's a nice feeling to have what feels like a long conversation and a little walk, but what is really a few hours and a few miles.
Now I am trying to make the most of things, stay positive and enjoy temporarily having no responsibilities for at least a few days.
Friday, January 9, 2009
baby, it's fucking cold outside!
Ok, so today is the first day of my (new) lifelong fitness journey. And I'm already sore!
Met with my new trainer Michelle and I am excited about the good things to come. Was nervous since it's been such a long time since I exercised seriously and woke up early (for me) to take the dogs out before I headed off. It was so cold! Is it too late to get a pair of fingerless gloves so that these earlier expeditions don't leave my digits resembling fish sticks?
Yesterday was a great day in that I accomplished a lot and felt an internal change happen.
I went to the WW and weighed in, happy that for the first holiday season maybe ever I not only didn't gain weight, but I lost a pound or two. It's very empowering that I did it and did it by making healthy choices, even though I did give in to a few sinful ones, too.
For the first time I heard myself say that I am glad I didn't make the job move sooner and I meant it. I am happy with my 8 years I put in at mac and I'm glad I didn't do it sooner - I had a good last year with them and was able to do a lot in that year, both professionally and in my personal life. That said, still happy to have the internal buzz out of my head!
In other news, I had lunch with mom, got a new journal, got some new AA shirts, signed up for said trainer and had a haircut. Feels good!
Met with my new trainer Michelle and I am excited about the good things to come. Was nervous since it's been such a long time since I exercised seriously and woke up early (for me) to take the dogs out before I headed off. It was so cold! Is it too late to get a pair of fingerless gloves so that these earlier expeditions don't leave my digits resembling fish sticks?
Yesterday was a great day in that I accomplished a lot and felt an internal change happen.
I went to the WW and weighed in, happy that for the first holiday season maybe ever I not only didn't gain weight, but I lost a pound or two. It's very empowering that I did it and did it by making healthy choices, even though I did give in to a few sinful ones, too.
For the first time I heard myself say that I am glad I didn't make the job move sooner and I meant it. I am happy with my 8 years I put in at mac and I'm glad I didn't do it sooner - I had a good last year with them and was able to do a lot in that year, both professionally and in my personal life. That said, still happy to have the internal buzz out of my head!
In other news, I had lunch with mom, got a new journal, got some new AA shirts, signed up for said trainer and had a haircut. Feels good!
Sunday, January 4, 2009
happy new ear!
well 2008 has come and gone and all in all it was a good year. hell, an almost great year.
At the beginning of 2009 I look back and am thankful for the following:
a new house
20 fewer pounds
a new job with more for less (as in $$$ and stress, respectively)
a luxurious 10-day trip to Gdansk
a happy year with matt and pedro and henry
and so I embark on this new year and new journey and having taken a few days to sort through them have come up with these goals:
lose 40 more
vacations galore: really, I want to go to argentina, but if poland, hawaii, san francisco happen, i will be pretty stoked.
define my personal style
take up drawing.
learn to cook some of my/our favorite dishes
finally dust off my sewing machine and test run a pattern or two
keep up what i started and enjoy another year!
especially now, when things are tough for most people I want to remember the good moments and be thankful when they happen.
At the beginning of 2009 I look back and am thankful for the following:
a new house
20 fewer pounds
a new job with more for less (as in $$$ and stress, respectively)
a luxurious 10-day trip to Gdansk
a happy year with matt and pedro and henry
and so I embark on this new year and new journey and having taken a few days to sort through them have come up with these goals:
lose 40 more
vacations galore: really, I want to go to argentina, but if poland, hawaii, san francisco happen, i will be pretty stoked.
define my personal style
take up drawing.
learn to cook some of my/our favorite dishes
finally dust off my sewing machine and test run a pattern or two
keep up what i started and enjoy another year!
especially now, when things are tough for most people I want to remember the good moments and be thankful when they happen.
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)